Friday, January 21, 2005

210105- hari raya haji

hapi hari raya to all the malays in the world..

u gif me a nice holiday where i slp whole day.. so nice..

morning 9am wake up-> play soccer-> enjoy myself bt keep missing goal.. kena laughed by my teammates.

went for kbox ard 12.. no kbox lunch.. sad waste of money... 10 dollars fly away..zz.. den went for TM foodcourt for its famous beef noodles.. super nice^^V.. den horhor go home art 4pm plus.. so early but reali nowhere to go liao.. dun wan go suntec with cw becoz too long n too ex. i nid to budget myself.. haha... waste too much on fone bill.. i stingy guy lehz^^v...

den go home n straught away fall down on bed n slp.. wah.. song..

den 7plus online n now writing blog.. tink nth special happen to me for today

tml plan for saturady? duno la

prev entry totally sux.. ignore it..

final note: i say sorry to those who i offended.. n hmm i reali noe alot of ppl too long le ba.. perhaps ppl need a new break ba.. maybe i should find new frens n make my life renewed.. bt haha.. being netfrens with they all so long.. i miss to suan them.. they haf become a ncie part of my life.. i dun wan them to become memory in my mind or i in thiers:)

sometime i tink i reali should not live on

i tink life is unfair.. but should it b so unfair to me?
i m veri sad i m very sad..grr i m whining.. gt so mani thing to worry abt.. so many arrows to take.. i dream of a day i finali say gdbye to this world.. wat llife i has led? only despair but nv happpppiness... but i kip on grumbling..haha.. sometime i tink i best at grumbling.. maybe i shoould b content with my life n stop tinking n complaining.. but hor this is me so i guess whoever is reading this blog is xi guan me complaining..

wonder why other ppl seem more hapier than me. is it i alllow my self to b sadder than them or they gt secret tat i duno..

where peishan ? where she run to?
where llijun? why she alway online bt nv reply me
why chienwen alway treat me like shit?
why yizhen dun wan mit me

haha.. i sya all the names liao

bu i guess i should nt worry abt virtual world
but hor in reality i haf more thing to worry lehz.. tink i like to escape to virtual world.. liek to lame to ppl who r nt in my life. i wan to b happy... i just wan to smile throughout the day n make ppl happy

i worry daily abt my days in bedok camp
i worry daily why i cannt make it in life
i worry daily abt my attitude..

hmm most of all i worry aby my meaning of my life
i feel unappreciated
btw i see alot of " i"
i m a damn selfcentered bastard
arghh haf to chnage myself.. haf to stop thinking.. haf to finali b hapi or i dunnoe how to live..

zzz.. my fone bill.. pls let it b ez for me to settle..

Monday, January 17, 2005

despatch ic.. feel strange after a few days off

hmm today monday.. i m back in bedok camp.. stupid stupid bedok bedok camp.. why must go back.. i off so mani days.. so song.. i like it veri much.. spend it quite interestingly.. enjoy tat few days... finali come back to reality.. the stupid office n stupid smart 4... gay

feel strange after finali come back.. go back to slacker life.. nthg to do 1.. i just show face in office.. n answer some calls... read newpaper

ahh.. i afternoon go do despatch.. hopped on a aircon car.. song

tink i travel all ard singapore

seletar east camp
mmi ard nuh there

haha.. actually nt so bad la.. quite enjoy the ride.. see cars n cars n cars n chio bu chio bu chio bu

sms ppl again.. tok to meinu lianjiejie on fone again..wahaha.. erm fone bill burst.. *dead*

i crapping again.. 3 more days to holidays

gosh tml working again

hmm monday tml

so sianz

off so many day
reali hate to go back camp work again

lolz.. but then tuesday i off again

haha..i cannt slp lehz

but now alreadi 145am liao..hai~~

Sunday, January 16, 2005

haha dreamer

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficultYou are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

confused ppl do confused thIngs

hmm i feel terribly stupid during this few days... why should i tell ppl i like her when i nt even sure.. hmm maybe i should nt write so much le la.. this is nt reali a very secret blog.. hai.`` cannt reali reveal my true feeling.. true feeling abt fren.. true feelings abt jealousy.. true feelings abt finding more abt myself.. beside u, there is still a few ppl who will look at this blog.. so i cannt reali say wat i realli wan to say to u.. but i must thank u for ur so mature thinking, ur refusal, ur time, ur reminders, ur naggings, ur pinching.... thanks for telling me ur ting.. it help me tink more in perspective abt my life..

haha..i tink i would rather b a joking, heck care, dun tink kind of person, lame person........ maybe this way i can find my little joy in my life.. i can c light coming out at my long trip down a tunnel.. i finali can accept i nt reali suited to b in a relationship, i finali can accept there is alway light in this world.. treasure my life more.. haha i noe i will achieve nthg down the road.. bt i will enjoy making ppl life happier, i will enjoy being a ever immature guy who hopefully will bring joy to some1 life.. i noe now wat is life.. life is making a difference to some1.. life is unfair but u can make something fair to some1 life

i guess i cannt make any1 difference to any ppl online le.. maybe they getting tired of toking to me.. i duno wat to do online.. look at those ppl.. i finali feel i cannt tok to them le.. feel their life revolving away frm me.. i cannt follow up any more.. too bz in army le.. too weak to feel le..

hmmm hapi for my buddy who get a ncie gf.. haha.. he keep on saying it is fast.. but i feel nt fast le lahz..u r trully compatible to her..haha.. if i guess, this relationship will surely last beyond 1 yr.. n maybe i can drink wedding dinner soon..=x

i dunnoe wat to write le.. maybe it will cum to my brain soon le la.. "i refuse to bow down to realities of life..i believe i m god.. if i going to b different frm life, i will b different.. i will nv b disheartened.. i will use the courage i alway haf to fight against life".. btw this is mayday song lyrics.. mmusic reali make u relax