Friday, October 21, 2005

stoopid jincai

stoopid jincai again..

lolz.. blunder again

do things i should do again

no point le..

no way back

anyway , my stupid delete my contacts.. i haf tried to retrieve all of my contacts..
however some is nt saved...

i hope every1 can add me back.. n lol

jincai is just jincai..

dumb n stupid n foreverduno how to become a person

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

she just wun understand

.i tink i did it again..

lol i create another lijun..=x

hmm she totally ignore mi le

she just dun understand

or hmm i just dun understand her well euff..

hmm i alway played this kind of jokes on ppl lei

yesh i m childish .. yesh i bad..

but u will noe i seriously just joking.. maybe this joke is abit bad.. but hmm. wat will u do when u haf a fone n u r alone in the office, doing nth but stariing at com
i stare at com whole day.. n doing OT again,..
n hmm i succesfully played this trick on 2 of my fren earlier
they nv took it seriously n successfull recognize my voice after awhile.. i nv seriously fake my just another boliao stuff i do.. hmm duno how it is linked to hw i treat my frens..

hmm maybe seriously i do treat my frens badly.. maybe tat why i gt so few frens..
but i given all to my frens request.. nv refuse them..

i seriously am tired..

n hmm seriously hey i guess i just face the com everyday la.. no point going out.. no point toking to ppl..

hmm maybe it will be my childhood again... always alone.. alwayjust being alone at home.. eat slp work.. how i wish i could find work to occupy myself.. hmm work do solve problems.. =) i worked frm the age of 11..

maybe i just be a workhorse.. haf no feelings.. just worked to death

i rambling again

Sunday, October 16, 2005

grieving is part of the process.. but why for me, it take so long?


life is so unfufilling for me

i duno why i cant tink of positive side of life
see the rainbow of life
see the kids mingling ard happily
remember the joy of success
enjoy the process of striving for something unachieveable
maybe tat why i alway tink of ways of outdoing myself
but u;timaelt i duno
maybe i nt gd euff
my negative thinking kick in again..
i want to try out for the standard chartered marathon during dec period.. 10lm

ahha although nt alot for us.. but it is a milestone for me..

ACCA.. accounting degree.. a difficult challenege.. a mountain to climg.. i wan to climb it.. although i noe i will end up bruised.. but no effort mean no success.. try n fail is at least better

at least ic an live with it..

so long nv see cailian le
where she gone
i sori for wat i did
it just childish