Saturday, September 17, 2005

long time no update..

hmm..
duno lei

yesterday i book out at abt 12am.. midnite
wah lau eh.. take taxi home lo.. sian lo.. i cant stand a nite in this stupid camp
sumor ei coming back on sunday doing duty.. knn ..

i hate this camp.. teh ppl inside.. the fakeness in every1 including me..

i haf no motive except to get through my ns life in 1 piece..

sumhow there alway thing alway gt shit tat will ahppen to disrupt my harmony.. my peace.. my hope.. i tired to live..

my everlasting theme.. tired to live.. lol..

sumhow i wish to die to let some1 live..
since my llife is worthless..
maybe my organ b donated to let ppl live on.. maybe tat is my greatest wish...
duno why god let ppl who dun deserve to live on to live
while those who haf family to live for frens to die for to b stricken with some caqncer some disease tat stripped them of dignity and life.. leaving those who he left behind in sadness...

i deserve to die..
since i gt nthg to live on
let those who haf to live on to live on..

oh god..

i dun haf courage to kill myself


i going marina to eat steamboat soon..lolx

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

why i so tired

ya why i so tired after everyday

guess is

1) heavy workload
2) stupid superior
3) lousy colleague

N OF COZ LOUSY ME

lolz.. i lament becoz i still gt 1 yr 3 mth to go b4 ord.. wah lau eh..

tiredddddddddddddddddd

19 more days

still dying n duno wat to do

Sunday, September 11, 2005

AHM

hi.. i a 21 yr old nsf who just went through ahm.. zzzzzzz.. morning i go army half marathon.. run 6km.. siannn
jialat la.. long time nv run.. but surprise di still can make it.. hehe..
saw quite alot of gals.. quite athletic.. i guess gals alway look gd doing sports..
hmm
nthg to update la.. afternoon i go kbox play...
sing sing.. sing new songs.. quite shiok..
sat nite early bk in... si bei sian la...
hmm oso lose quite alot of money..lol
sad ..cannt go chalet becoz her fren dun let me go??