Saturday, February 05, 2005

hmmm why mmust i suffer?

hmm 1 wk nv update le..

since my new appointment, i m quite " bz:": techinicallly zhou bo lan but still must stay in office.. ready to do tings at all time.. n my commanding officer is siao 1.. he stay back late late 1.. he hai wo cannt bk out 1.. for the past 5 days.. i tink i stay in twice.. wah this is twice i noramlly stay in camp lo.. zzz more worse days ahead i presume..

actually my life is like tat lo.. nthg much except staring at air most of the time.. some office politics.. but still ok la... it is like this 1.. hmm alway kena bullied by colleagues.. hai~~ why i gt a gullible look.. should go change my look liao.. =x...

i dunnoe wat to tink le.. my life getting monotonous.. haha getting hard to write anything liao.. veyr hard to see my eyes these few days.. hopefully over chinese new yr period they r free ba.. should come out tok tok tok.. if not siao siao liao.. getting further n further.. haha i wan see weelung getting married 1 lo.. he still owe me a matchmaking present.. hongbao..

hmm chinese new yr faster come la... i wan long holiday.. maybe can relax super gd.. becoz now i getting sick.. sneezing, coughing, throat pain..lolz .. FLU.. but this kind of sickness is troublesome but nt serious..zzz.. sure cannt take mc 1..

EHhHHhhHH... can my life haf more controversies? hahaaa.. nt in army life i hope.. pesonal life more.. n hmm online less= less time to chat with ppl= cannt tok to her= guess she forget abt me le...

Sunday, January 30, 2005

moody sunday

hi guys.. nv update a few days.. becoz i damn bz n tired..

hmm becoz of my new appointment.. i alway seem to stay back late.. so i guess i wun b able to stay out during wkdays alot..

is staying in actually beta than staying out?

frm my perspective hor, it is actually worse.. becoz i feel uncomfortable in army camp for 24 hr or in army uni.. so many restrictions.. so i feel going out into civilian world for a few hr is also kind of medicine to sooth my uncomfortable feeling.. but usually it will make me very very tired.. n when i bk in i usually throw myself in camp..
so is staying in or staying out beta? haiz....

god help me choose..

my new appointemnt is so sianz.. alway sitting ard receiving calls.. i tink i act as perosnal secretary to the commanding officer, ableit guy... i dun like this life.. i wan my old appointment back.. it is much easier..n relaxing.. imagining living under lion mouth for 2 yr..zzz

i gt nthg o tok abt army la.. except i feel tired alway these few wk.. faster chinese new yr lehz.. faster lehz.. i wan to relax...

damn it i tink i gt emotionnal black hole liao.. i cannt feel anything le.. nummb nummb i feEling NuMB... my frens all bz with thier own lifes.. my colleagues r just colleagues..lolz. i juSt wan to b alive.. or maybe as chenwei i should go out to find tat some1 who will brighten my life.. but i doubt so