Saturday, December 11, 2004

hmm nt bad day

nt bad day..

wake up at 11
eat lunch
check my pay n posting
suay

tio west sg posting..23 mrt station frm tampines..haiz..still duno i stay in or out.. prepared for worst.. sometime i tink it is heaven will.. for a person who dun travel alot even ard sg.. must ffinally abandon safe haven n start to fly le..wat is lot 1 wat is west mall wat is jp.. nv visit b4.. dun even noe how bukit batok mrt staion look like.. hah maybe will see ppl i wun even see if i still live in east sg.. although sg is small.. but still it depend on fate to see some1.. hmm maybe i will see my dream gal at the west ..haha.. maybe she will even work in the same place as me..lol lol.. funny how ting will work.. nt bad la.. my posting quite near to few netfrens.. den i gt quite a few platoon mates posted to there... hopefully can help each other.. n poly frens .. 2 of them r posted to west too.. hah after 5 can come out lim kopi.. enjoy west sg amenities..

hmm nthg much to say.. still alot of qn marks abt future life.. all willl b revealed soon..

haha afternoon when i m veri sian n feeling suay.. lol sms come in say she intm waiting for weibo performance at 7pm.. ask me come down.. so hmm i come down lo.. den we walk walk arrd tm.. walk circles i tink.. nt bad la.. can chat along.. but tink i tok the most.. haha tink i appear overfrenly..lol..i nervous ma.. i keep on toucvhing cap.. sianz.. nervous.. hmm tok abit lame..=x... laming ard..haha.. bad impression maybe? but dun care la.. lidat lo.. walk 1 hr.. feel time pass slowly.. eh wat will she tink of me? i wonder.....a mystery maybe nt solve...

tml alot event

play soccer morning

eveniong gathering dinner.... hopefully enjoy

Friday, December 10, 2004

welcome to my life

sometime i wish the wind can blow away my sadness............ blow away my life.. time pass veri fast..
now thurday le.. tml my posting will b unveiled.. duno i will thrown into heaven or hell.. i dunnoe n i dun wan to noe.. haiz.. just haf to deal with it.. man i feel tired.. i feel exhausted... i just hope wind blow me away..

wonder how ppl feel at the last moment.. will he ever feel peace even at the last moment of life?

peace peace all i wan is peace.. i dun wan to deal with tings.. wat a coward i m.. but too bad tat how i m..

i dun wan act smiley face.. i dun wan act lame.. i just wish to find something tat will gif me eternal peace

attention seeker i m? hmm i crave attention but i need peace.. wat a weird person i m? maybe i wan ppl to noe how sad how angry how frustrated i m.. maybe this is my libra personality ba.. ahh.. i cannt explain myself.. i dunnoe why i act this way..

Do you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands youDo you ever wanna run away?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudThat no one hears you screamingNo you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's like to be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeDo you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?Are you desperate to find something moreBefore your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?With the big fake smiles and stupid liesBut deep inside you're bleedingNo you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's like to be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeNo one ever lies straight to your faceAnd no one ever stabbed you in the backYou might think I'm happyBut I'm not gonna be okEverybody always gave you what you wantedYou never had to work it was always thereYou don't know what it's likeWhat it's likeTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my lifDo you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands youDo you ever wanna run away?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudThat no one hears you screamingNo you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's like to be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeDo you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?Are you desperate to find something moreBefore your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?With the big fake smiles and stupid liesBut deep inside you're bleedingNo you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's like to be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeNo one ever lies straight to your faceAnd no one ever stabbed you in the backYou might think I'm happyBut I'm not gonna be okEverybody always gave you what you wantedYou never had to work it was always thereYou don't know what it's likeWhat it's likeTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downWhen no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

yea.. welcome to my life.. haiz rotten life

Thursday, December 09, 2004

haiz.. fall sick

morning wake up dun feel very well

get sore thorat
keep coughing
fever abit

lol tink body "hot":

sian .. but then nthg to look forward. so boring life

can go paya lebar in afternoon but too tired n sick to go.. wan go jp even cannt la

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

8th dec 2004- 5 days after my grad

hmm. duno wat to say lehz.. just feel days pass so fast.. a blink of eye.. i finished my bmt n now i in the middle of wk.... friday den i will noe the result of my posting.. whether i will stay in or stay out.. which mean stay in=> i will haf to stay in camp for wkdays.. onli come out for wkends...haiz sian.. duno new camp will gt internet connections arnot.

will i make new frens??


i getting to miss my bmt days.. i had mixed feeling when i get on my last ferry, my last bus ride to pasir ris interchange.. i say gdbye to my bunk, i say gdbye to my frens, i even say gdbye to ferry terminal.. i watch tekong disappear frm the edge of my eyes.. i feel like crying..haha
reali lo.. best of all i tink i miss the companionship, the comradeship tat is bonded over 7 wks.. i miss being tekaned..lol lol
bt hmm i oso glad to leave there.. i reali tired of living in fear of confinement n punishments n scoldings..


tekong tekong.. o.0 ghost stories alot.. i actually encountered some in my bunk.. my buddy cupboard will sometime hear knocking sound for no reason.. n i gt see shaking of the cupboard.. quite eerie.. lol... we couldnt see any way how the cupboard can shake or why gt knocking sound.. den when in the dead of nite, i alway get the feeling tat i m being watched.. tekong ah at nite is quite scary..haha.. bt i nt scared=P.. if i dun disturb them, they wun disturb me... in tekong still gt other more scarier ghost stories bt i nv encountered it personally so cannt prove it.. n i heard frm my segerants tat my company building gt quite a few ppl jump b4... gt 1 even stabbed himself with bayonet..lol lol.. lol..

hee.. actually hor i nv reali get to exercise alot in bmt.. i usally chao keng 1.. n somemore there isnt alot of physical stuff.. i alway lie in bunk sleeping:P.. n listening to music.. or hear ppl tok rot.. now i noe guys in singapore very horny 1..haha.. my bunkmate even get his gf pregnant n now is father of 4 yr gal.. horny horny..zz*admire?*

n i made quite alot of frens inside.. n i tink they tink well of me ba.. alway like to tease me.. bt hmm i nt a talkative person.. so i alway use my shy look.. i nt a gd talker..haha..

eh tink i quite popular ba.. hmm still havent get my pics.. i gt quite alot funni pics.. i =x even fingered my segrant using my bandaged finger..

hmm euff of army life.. tok abt past few days..

saturday..

nthg much.. whole afternoon online play game den go out to watch soccer with fren.. lllidat 1 day gone.. wat a waste of time:X.. why no interesting ting happen to me


sunday..

same same la.. play soccer in the morining.. very tiring.. afternoo 2 plus come back to dress for nite marina bay trip.. so sad lijun nv come.. she say she tired..lol lol.. alex is looking forward to her presence.. in the end she nv go..haiz.. disappointed.. i reach the mrt station at 505pm.. rest heavtn reach yet.. i stand there for awhile n then they start streaming in.. lol gt 6 ppl(kuang cw wl cc wq alex).. we then go marina bay togther.. hehe den i very qian.. i push them towward long village where my netfren chienwen is working at..

wahaha.. we sit there n she nv notice.. den i keep looking at her=x.. saw her sis working there too.. whole family i tink..lol lol.. quite enjoyable.. teasing her through sms.. gt 1 time ask her to add soup but she zao..zzzzzzzz... den ask her marina bay gt atm ma? den she say tanjong pagar mrt..she suaning me???

lol.. dun relai tok to her.. but i haf enjoyable time at marina bay toking rot with frens.. but pity no gals=x

monday==> slp whole day
tuesday=>? slp whole day

wah i live a interesting life..