Saturday, March 10, 2007

soccer heals

yea.. i always love soccer on wkends..

soccer is a major passion in my life

it heals my sadnesss.. n drive me further..

life is full of ups and downs..

dun wallow in sorrow n go on to get more targets

today score a wonderful goal..dribble past 2 person.. den shoot with my weaker foot, left foot.. to is like 20 m away.. on the half way line of the court... i heard chants of cristano ronaldo frm my teamates.. i so pleased:P

god pls dun give me any more sad things... i just wan play soccer and score goals

Friday, March 09, 2007

444th post

die as this moment of time.. heart stop feeling

but passion nv die.. still yearning for u

p.s kaypohs dun see my blog...this may or may nt be my true feelings..

Thursday, March 08, 2007

untitled again

have u wondered how to cry in front of a dead person.. i remember...

tears cant stop flowing.. yet u cant stop it....

now at this moment, i want to cry but nno tears come out...

it has dried frm numerous disappointment i have over my life..

u can never wan to live my life

1-6 cooped up in hse.. always play alone.. play imaginary games.. wonder when will i have a fren

7-12 i onli remb hse.. i nv remb frens schools.. i dun tinnk there ever a pri sch mate who r still close to me now

it always home n home.. me n my 4 walls n books...

pri 6 sch too stress.. teacher torture me.. always pinch my ears.... play truant.. the sight of my mum cryying in
front of my principal. i m disappointed.go to em1 study higher chinese. in the end disappoint mother.

a pure disappointment in life

sec school sch home work soccer work n work work
i onli remb going to do dish washing jjob..wkend is full of work.. wash till my leg pain.. skin peel
in the end money just go in bank.. i know mother good.. wan us earn money so infuture wun so xin ku
yet i a disappointment again

a pure disappointment in life. i get 6 A for my olvls.. hoping to go to jc... go for 3 mth course. dun understand literature. cannt understand ang moh teacher.. cried in frt of him. den dun go le

mother died in may 2001. decided to go poly. paartly becoz of mother died n jc failure

a disappointment in life.

worked in dishwashing full time. mon to sun. at nite.. poly time. 1st yr. after the food court closed , stopped working
began gambling n spending alot. lose all i earn last few yrs. ard 1 k n the rest went into studies.

a disappointment in life.. plus nv scoore well in poly.

for 6 mths after poly. slack at home. no interest to work.

a disappointment in life

army toughened me up.alot thing to learn. yet i keep bungling.

a disappointment in life

in 2006 i decide to buck up. tried improve myself. my life,. my everything.

wan to achieve alot of things.

in 2007, i feel disheartened.

becoz i a disappointment in life. wad can i say

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

untitled post

sumtime i feel worthless living iin this world.. why i always seem to envy wad ppl have.

ppl have car ppl have lover ppl have money ppl have status.. but i have nth....

i dream of having.. but sumtime this is onli a dream..i cannt hope to dream of having it in this life

becoz i born to be poor? many r born to be rich.. many r born to be clever.. but sumehow i m born to be

somehow i hate myself for being myself..

hate myself for mani reasons
1) why i have to see my mum die in frt of me
2) why i have to be so useless
3) why i cant overcome myself and be a better person
4) why cant i bring happiness to every1

so mani reasons to hate me.. i already hate myself.. so do u hate me

it so heart wrenching to see some1 who u love die in front of u...

it also very heart wrenching to see the gal u love is holding other guy hand.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

monday coming.. another wk of work

6 working days.. wah seem so long.. i hope i can finish it nice nice

finsiih this long mth........
it seem veri long now.........

haiss.. mar 5.. den mar 30---- 25 days mre.. iwill finish it de..

i work for my pay!!

wkend sian.. except playing soccer with chenwei
why cant i play every wk..