been lazy to update

lol.. nothing to update.. erm just given notice.. gg quit at the end of mth..

just received letter frm ntu.. tio reject again.. sian..

hmm dunnoe wad to feel now.. i oso cannt ascertain wad i m feeling rite now..

confused.. duno wad to do? wad can i do?

life is full of rejections n failures.. but why did my failures always come when i wan do my best??

lol.. i guess i did not take my opportunities when it come.. now it no time to regret le..

wad can i do? seriously i dunnoe..

i just 1 step walk 1 step.. future seem so dark yet again...

wat can i do?

no 1 can advise me.. ... ..

wat is life?

i always tok cok 1

lol.. actuallly i guess i overestimmate myself.. i just a piece of junk... lying in the junkyard.. living in past glories.. now i old le.. brain slow liao.. cannt tink liao.. still tinking of achieving great things............wad acca.. wad first class honor.. wad ntu.. it all lies to cover my weakness.. i a weak person attention seeker.. no use no brain.. hais. wad i can do.. wallow in self pity.. tinking the world will change for me like tat.. or coontinue to fight on.. continue to feel the despairing feeling of sadness.. i feel so dead.. wad i have in my life to fight on for.... maybe i shd go back to my poly life.. slack all the way.. go online pian xmm... lol.. knw alot of girls .. now chat with them ... meet them .. so fun .. so exciting n unpredictable.. but in the end i still single n unwanted.. n those so called frens have all seem to have thier stufff to do while i wallow in here.. i m so dead.. must be my fault.. must be my fault..

becoz of my personality , becoz of my choices, becoz of my mistakes. i m so born to suffer.. i guess i need a break

blogging for awhile

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buti hungry now.. see u later

sunday aftermoon

feel so lazy.. life is damn boring...

i feel

ok my close frens all exams finish.. den can go out with them.. but life is sooooooooooooooooo boring..

becoz i think there is no challenge in my life..

on a sidennote, i keep eating

i grow fat le

any1 wan meet meeeeeeeeeeee?

any ppl
so boringgggggggggggggggg

did i overestimate myself?

till now, i havent receive my ntu or nus acceptance letter.. so did i realli overestimate myself in tinking i will succeed in wadeva i want.. i dunnoe why i work or dream so hard,, wad is success.. i wonder..issit becoz i wan be a different person

i want get wad i wan.. n wad i dream... then maybe i wun call my life as a wasted life...

bur i rink sometime i set too high standards for myself.. or tink too highly of myself.. wad acca.. wad first class honor.. wad ntu engineer.. wad double dgree.. lol i oso feel not so confident in getting my dippploma in this jun.. so fast.. 1 mth den exams le.. 5 paper.. route to success or failure??

everyday i feel so tired.. work so hard n no time to revise.. or issit i no discpline?

i wonder why m i thinking of this way.. whyi nt born a scholar.. m i really so limited in wat i m going to achieve

my frens often thoought well of me.. say i smart n blah blah blah........

but m i really smart clever hardworking/

i feel so useless.. did i come so far in order to wallow in despair?

can some1 give me a word of comfort?