-.-??........wat is life? wat is love? wat is the future ahead?

if u looking at this entry becoz of its title, i tell u i haf no answer to the above questions..

if i noe wat is llife, why should i alway toking to my netfrens n moaning n crapping abt it?

if i noe wat is love, why should i steadless:P?

if i noe wat is the future ahead, i should go b fortune teller lliao n nt worry constantly abt future..?

ohh crap.. above all is crap..

i spend prev few days tinking alot of days ahead..meaning life in tekong n in ns..BUt still NO conclusion la..onli resolution to myself: i will go into it with my usual enthusiam.. i will rox NS..i wun feel lonely inside.. i will make myself happi inside.. after all, come on i look like uncle:P n personally i tink i very mature in tinking abt most things.. ok la maybe some thing nt yet mature..BUt o_0 i m sure i m 1 strongspirited guy

=)i tinking of my frens inside.. wat they doing now? how they handling life inside? wellmaybe guy look tough outside.. but most guys r a weak bunch mentally.. at least i tink @@.. gt a few guy fren quite emotionally weak..
o.0 i gt my sad moments.. i gt my moments when i feel i wan break down.. i feel sometime i should just die.. but eh when i return to house n see my com, i hapi.. when i see my sis studying n i suan her, i feel hapi when i saw my bro fat stomach n his evergrowing figure, i laugh, whenever i see my second small sis alway smsing away on her hp n looking so ah llian, i feel amused..hey small thing will make u hapi.. try find something tat will make u feel hapi..hEhe..I noe my family love me n i LoVE them.. although gt sometime arguement with my father, but eh part of growing up.. n they will alway b there for me.. i will alway b there for them..

lolx..lolx..hmm gt 3 yr 5 month 7 days n abt 12 hr frm when my mum died.. i tink she will b hapi to see us 4 living so well.. wat she taught us had made us great person.. she is so strict.. i remember.. hmm but hey..our lao er is top 10 in her jc.. n she is top of 2 subject at her level.. n my little bro is top of his sch..hey his english get full mark at his eoy exam ..haha.. feel proud of them.. onli my youngest sis.. haiyo..jia you ba.. not at the top few percentage.. but if u work hard, u can do it 1.. only me is a failure..whywhywhywhy i fail my english at olevel.. whywhywhywhy i just cannt pick myself up after my mum death n move on.....
OoPS..duno why i tok abt it again.. it alway will b my thorn in my heart...maYbe it is survivor guilt..

eH...UHMM.. OOO...LALA..APA

nothing to write.. so above title

sian few day... today is wed 6 oct.. 2 wk more to D-day..

tink i going to continue blog inside tekong..

gb sux.. crazy 1.. nv record gp correctly 1.. i benn eaten so many gp..-.-.. still abt a few hundred to level upp.. eh where my wand dream?-.-".. i reali tink i sux liao.. last time when i gt a goal, i will chiong n chiong until i reach the goal.. even if i dun chiong, tat thing will come naturally to me.. alamak.. m i being too complacent or wat.. wat i aim for nv happen 1.. too many yrs in poly has spoilt me.. where my spirit where my fire..last time when i do things, i alway win... becoz i very competitive.. now? i sux.. a big turtle

uhh.. i become more quiet... nice lehz.. training to b a ping fan ren inside ns..the stand in middle guy

hmm ppl ard me oso become more quiet le..zZzZzzzZZ..

m i leading a quiet life frm now?

M i going to live a life with no aim, motivation N NO life..==> my fren msn nick

brrr.. eh do proj dun b stress.. becoz it nt the end of the world..ppl r nt selfish.. bt ppl tend to protect their interests first..

i wan to jump frm my building.. i wan restart my life... i wan to relive

thank u hoshi

thank u for ur happi bday comment.. i now then see..oso saw ur blog.. wow my bday same as ur fren.. lolx.. but ur fren so lucky 1.. still gt a muackz. n huggies.=(..

eh life nt a bitch la.. n eh dun sound so down...cheers up..

yesterday my birthday..

lolx.. totally gloomy sunday..-.-wake up late den see sky so black..=(.. my birthday is so gloomy.. wat will b ahead of me ??? haiz.. reali getting depressed when i see the day coming soon..

wake up ard 12.. woken by sms..=x... saying i beta dun slpping now.. but i m.. oops

den sian sian see sky.. black.. totally no mood to see lian jiejie..hee.. paisehz.. n then my father called to tell me to help him in work.. sian... wasted my afternoon.. but i very surprised to seee my lunch= kfc ultimate chicken..muahaha.. my sisters buy for me 1.. ty ty...being ur korkor gt privleges although i dun reali gif u stuff n gift.. bad korkor..=P.. den nite come back after helping..wow.. pizza hut.. the otah pizzaa.. wow.. fastfood birthday lunch n dinner..lolx..haha.. it must b becoz i keep on saying tat thing look gd on tv den they so nice buy for me..lol..lol

=( finally thank u to those who wished me hapi bday.. haha.. be it belated or wat..=P.. many belated.. ty to those who send hapi bday msg n nice picturemsg frm eug

n finally thank for this msg " hey birthday boy! go where play now? haha.. birthday on sunday good or not? got girls date u out or not? hahahaha"

it totally make my day...-__-"
oo n thanks to those who mention me in thier blog.. wow at least gt a name in ur entries..
oo thanks to peishan for making my name big big in the bluedome channel
oo thank to those who gif me presents.. n thank to those who nv gif me presents
wow.. so many thanks

today is 20th birthday...

eh bday is like every bday.. quiet as alway... but this yr more quieter.. becoz frens all inside le..

nv receive hapi bday sms.. but guys mahz.. we dun really do this stuff..

but hmm netfrens dun haf oso.. so i tink tat is tat lo...

dun reali advertise my bday like last yr..haha.. becoz last yr is first yr i celebrate it online mahz..=P

eh sianz liao.. dun wan tink it is my bday.. n when looking to the NS date.. i more n more depressed..

awww.. frm all evidence, i will go into xiong company.....everything will b strict.. i will change i tink...

change to wat? i duno.. bt based on this evidence i will really surprised to find me online at all next year..

hope tat every1 live well.. n hope i will b hapi n contented inside NS.. tat my bday wish.. ahaha.. some1 say shouldnt say bday wish out becoz it wun then come true..

bt seriously i hope this wish come true.. yea yea..

miss u all