Monday, May 02, 2005

my heart is as empty as the sky

i cannt envisage the things tat will happen in the future..

for now, i had lived 20 yrs 7 mths which is roughly 7300 days

everyday has its moments.. wat can i remember as in now?

oct 3 1984- the day i m born to a world with 2 doting parents

the first 5 yrs i tink i lived happily la.. haha like real i can remember wat happned when i a child but see my child pic i saw cute cute happy faces..

kindergarden i still remember .. veyr scary.. keep crying.. remember the maths n the teacher.. she later become my brother kindergardern principal.. we the family all go same pap kindergarden

pri sch same same la.. oso scarey cat.. -.- shy boi mahz.. alway sytay at home.. dun reali remember la wat happen everyday but p1-p3 normal day is go study study in pri sch.. mother fetch mi home.. wkend stay at home.. i alway a stay-in guy..lolz

p4 gd year.. duno wat i eat.. study very gd.. teacher oso very gd.. nice teacher MS lau.. everything ace it.. shiok.. but tink my english nt very gd.. so nearly cannt go em1.. but they accept mi after some consideration becoz result is very gd.. tink get 2 A 1 A star 1 b 1 c...haha
p5 i suffer.. cannt follow. duno why lehz..maybe i nt smart euff la.. syllabus too xiong. teacher stress mi.. feelow classmate too li hai.. but still can la.. midtable in my top class

p6 cannt tahn.. go play truant.. my feng guang 1 nian.. lolz kana caught a few time.. tink of ways to excape frm, sch.. like hide my civilian clothes in sch bag n change in stair cases landing...lala feng guang la.. see principal for first time.. n the time i saw my mother cry..

my mother alway fierce to mi.. everything i do wrong she will cane mi.. haiz.. everytime will scold mi.. but in the end after the scolding i alway remember she will an wei wo or apply ointment on the hand she caned.. when she scold mi she alway cry!!

i hate to make my mother sad but..........

wo bu zheng qi la

sec 1 go paris ris sec.. everything new new de.. haha.. scary go sch myself at first.. father gt come later! sister gt go later ! mother no go! tink go work! haa.. see my class no in the notieboard n my name.. go class. funi funi.. i finali feel i belong there.. nice teacher.. haha paris ris sec sch is reali a nice sch.. i dun haf anything to fault against it.. my psle nt reali tat gd.. but 1 of the best in paris sec sch.. haha i tink.. but i dun reali perform in sec 1.. many subjects.. tough tough.. geogrpahy difficult.. fail my arts.. i alway nt a artistic person.. sad.. alway fail arts or almost fasill.. duno why.. so sec 1 lidat go pass by.. alway go home oso.. hmm veyr notti tat time.. at class alway make fun of gals.. hee dun reali rememeber the gals name.. but haha i alway teases the gals.. result so so.. guo de qu

sec 2.. siao yr oso.. duno why i alway tend to do well when there is streaming or so on.. maybe i perform well in pressure mehz?
or i just value results toomuch
study study study ..
nice yr
nice teachers
made lots of close fren which i still remember
n still in contact
haha a gd yr overall
results.. hmm top10 in sch lo

i develop a liking for history n academic subjects.. geo i suddenly like oso.. haha study like mad in sec 2 3 4 alway get a2 n above.. get below it i will sad.. but english n math alway sux.. get C

sec 3.. happening yr oso.. made great frens.. enjoy the frenship very much.. but hmm i still dun go out with frens during wkend.. i alwya stay at home.. maybe mother too strict..i had started work liao since sec 2..
family nid money.. alway work at wkend.. happy working although sometime i liek to run away frm it.. haha.. work is nt something i like very much.. but i like the feeling i gt my wages n seeing my bank acc grow..
i oso remember tat yr a gal say she likes mi
sec 4 olevel yr woo hoo.. study time.. haha i realli sound like a nerd.. maybe result do matter to mi ba. chiong chiong.. play socc er play soccer oso.. ahhah

last few mth b4 olevel i chiong studies..haha.. i still remember a kettle of water.. my million million of highlighted notes.. my endless coffee.. haha fun studying.. ton in library too..

hmm in the end i tink i very relax in olevel.. haha.. alreadi study tat hard.. still can play soccer b4 my chemistry olevel

did i score well in my olevel?????????????-- to b continued----

afternote: today duno why i start to write this.. just write to remember something la.. to keep my life in perspective.. to remeber my life is actually worth something

my life is empty
darkness creep
no sound is heard
a guy wallow in despair
tries to shout
tries to cry
tries to move
but time seem to stop
time stop
time stop
time stop
time stop
time pls stop

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