can i live to 21??

today celebrate tan weelung birthday.. haha. he finally 20..lol

morning 10am rush to toa payoh..kaoz.. do shit thing sia.. just go play bastketball n soccer.. teampines to toa payoh.. so far

play to 3 den take cab back home.. den nap for awhile.. den go tampines mall n century square.. we go eat billy bomer n catch a move later.. ahh.. nice watresses.. food okok la.. make me feel full.. i eat something called mini mixed grill thing.. =x.. like rojak sia.. sauasage lamb chop chiceken thing lucnhenon meat.. egg.. funi.. high class.. get my first ns pay so can go eat...

any speial feelings? hmm gd to see old frens. but somehow ppl r getting on with their lifes.. while i m still stuck.. hey i m still stuck here.. wat should i do.. wat should i say.. i still feel ever so distant.. like i living on another world.. i feel i m dazing ard frm the first day of ns.. my section mate alway mention it to me i wasd like alwat sitting with my eyes dazed n looking "nt there" .. it is like i m dispossessed frm my body.. m i going crazy? can i ever get my soul back?

i tink i gt serious problem..
can some1 save me? can some1 tell me wat wrong with me?
hmm.. i reali hope something some1 will show wat will happen to me to next few years..

can i ever b somebody or b a nobody? i rather b a nobody den b a dead person