i love her.. veri pain

hmm this is unrequited love.. veri pain.. veri hurt.. esp when she leave u for the last time...

i love her.. seriously...

i wan be with her.. protect her.. make her smile n laugh.. i love being with her...

why heaven wan me see her yet i cant have her..

why she dun like me..

m i too lousy??

Lol.. i dunnoe why she nv express her feelings clearly to me.. even on the last moment..

i sms her again yesterday.. yet she nv reply...


on thursday her last day, i prepare a special present for her..

i buy a card design it.. ask 20 over ppl personally sign w/o her knowing..

arrange the present nicely on the desk n put the card which consist 3 things.. combined together look veri nice..

i feell oddly happy tat i m able to do this.. i nv able to gif ppl present properly.. i nt the type to tink n express this kind of things...

but yet for her, i can do this.. i can do this without any reservations

i do this to make this a beautiful memory for her n me..

aww yet the onli thing i get frm her is a thks..

wad i wan hear is why she can torture me so long.. can be so cold to me a moment..

den can be frenly n joke with me .. can smile to me..

she nv reali say she dun like me.. yet she nv say she like me too

i confused whether she like me arnot

issit i too possessive or i hurt her too much over tat event that she fear to be with me..

yet now she left me le.. left me hurting.. it pain n cut like a knife...

but hor i reali feel i can see her again
i reali feel i fated to see her 1..

i hope i see her.. i m yearning for her..

can heaven hear my pleads... n grant my wish?

soon i upload the pic

wkend suxs.

supposedly a wkend to relac n enjoy.

but i feel i slack too much

bu shuang
read a few books

but still feel too much time on hand

but but but then again omg tml is work le

a few mre hrs to the same old routine

arghh

she back to haunt me

lol... she back frm hq...

i tot she will end her contract there n gone forever. however twist of fate make her come back here.. tml i see her again

mixed feelings.. dunnoe wad i will feel..

just hope things will be normalll..

n she willlllll accept me

haa wishful thinkings..


dreams nv come true..

i learnn..

been busy this few wks.. studies online.. wan earn more money but no opportunities..

or i nv find hard euff..

been losing money in betting



haiya.. i dunnoe wad to do abt my life.. i find out i gt alot shortcoming.. but i dun seem to be able to change it... so mani ppl r hapi abt their life..
but i nv satisfied.. i want more.. yet more bad things happen to me...
i veri tired abt life.. this life is not worth living. i cant find any warmth.. i cant find any motivations...

2008 wishes n hopes

Ya.. actually reali post my resolutions on the side of the blog..

2007 just pass like tat.. now is 2008

nth much happen on these 2 day,.. jan 1 n jan 2..

hope to do much more more stuff..

jan 4 starting sch... mon fri sure will have lots of lesson.

jan 12 have exam..

jan 5 army gathering

jan 19 sec sch gathering..

hmm january seeem bz...

these few days will be quite bz with work.. now seriously veri tired


anyway a bz start is good.. it prep me well for a better 2008..

alot things to do..

to invest n save abt 20k.. =)

finish my acca fundamentals exams

make more frenss... be more hapi...

n yayaa.. get more angbao nxt mth..

happy new yr guys.. full of optimisim for the new yr...

2008 wishes n hopes

Ya.. actually reali post my resolutions on the side of the blog..

2007 just pass like tat.. now is 2008

nth much happen on these 2 day,.. jan 1 n jan 2..

hope to do much more more stuff..

jan 4 starting sch... mon fri sure will have lots of lesson.

jan 12 have exam..

jan 5 army gathering

jan 19 sec sch gathering..

hmm january seeem bz...

these few days will be quite bz with work.. now seriously veri tired


anyway a bz start is good.. it prep me well for a better 2008..

alot things to do..

to invest n save abt 20k.. =)

finish my acca fundamentals exams

make more frenss... be more hapi...

n yayaa.. get more angbao nxt mth..

happy new yr guys.. full of optimisim for the new yr...