sunday 26 11 2006

lost lost lost lost

last few days i keep thinking of wad to aim for in 2007.. i do research surf net.. see how much the thing cost..

i decide wad i wan.. it is listed in my wants column.. hmm it is gd to aim high.. becoz if nv achieve, at least u have tried.. but i will nv give up.....

lols.. nowadays feel beri lost... i going to ord soon.. but i totally unprepared for working life.. is it very tough?

the childish, self absorbed side of me can tahan arnot

can i handle the stress of working?

can i be the normal me?

i so proud person.. dun wan admit defeat.. always tink higher of myself than i m..

can i really do well in my future life.. i dun know wad to tink..

i always make ppl angry sad,,unable to make ppl smile

how many ppl i can count as my true frens?

r u my fren?

i feel emotionally distant.. very drained...

but i wan live on as i m.. becoz i nt living for myself..

i know i living on for my mother.. she will wan me bravely live on and achieve things..

she tink of the world of me.. i can nv give up despite my personality failures

exam exam exam exam

hmm i go enrol for t6 le.. still gt 4 more course to learn n enrol. hopefully can pass lo
suddenly feel veri ppoor.. i need ard 2k more..
so much so muchmoney.. later need to go for acca lvl 2..
den go for ntu

i tink the onli limiting factor for me now is money

withoout money i could not do so

now i know wad shd i do le

i shd find work lots lots of work

swallow my pride ask for work

faster ord too

emotionally empty.. when can some gal save me

boring jincai

okie wad to blog. nth happen today.. haha.. sianx.. tink alot of things.. but still cannt go ndo lei


okie let blog abt the gals i recently know ba..
nowadays gals very dangeroooouss 1..
they wan ur hp num
n KEEP flooding ur hp with msgs

-_-i veri nice to reply them bbbut they keep msging..
i tinkk i become thier temporary bf....

wahaha..
but sad they all fat.. sob sob
1 call kelly .. the other call marilyn..

u wan see their pics.. ask me lo..

i hate myself

i hate myself for many things.

1) unable to achieve anything in life
2) unable to step out of comfort zone
3) unable to be determined in doing things
4) unable to think positively
5) unable to be less lame
6) unable to get away from my computer
7) unable to care for people
8) unable to open up to ppl
9) unable to trust ppl
10) unable to do things my way
11) unable too enjoy my life as it is

fuk myself.. lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFQ7vm4Nc8c nice anime..

i admire the kiwi but i wan live my dreams n achieve it

fuk the world

i dun wan to keep losing..