i guess i wan control my life

hmm..
i wan to control my life
i dun wan to be a weakling le
i wan my life to be focused and ultimately to be a hapi one..

i know i nt tat disclpined yet.. but slowly bahz..
i wan to achieve watever i wan
i noe i can do it
i wan to be a self centered bastard
hmm
i wan live on for my mother, to live on for myself...

i just want to be number one again

hmm haha long time nv take pic=(
wan to put new pic in post..
but dun haf camera lei
sianz

omg..a gal had phone sex with me

hmm..
serious shit..
gt a gal who i noe online call me today ard 9..
den say if i horny arnot n so on..
erm
i play along..
then
she start to moan..
n say alot of dirty stuff..
wah very paisehz........

hmm but i was turned on...
serious shitss..
should i avoid the gal?

beautiful sat nite

hmm

yeah went to my fav prata shop at boon keng again..
watch soccer again
hmm chat n tok rot for a few hrs again
i always enjoy these few hrs of private reminisincing and chatting with my frens, sharing tots and enjoying each other company..
haha
poking fun at each other n making fun of the events tat happened ard us..
hmm once in a while this kind of gathering reali rox..
haha..

reali looking forward to these kind of gathering.. where chenwei go this time..
go india jalan jalan.. so sad..

hopefully next time can see him again

i hope i will be a bus, to be able to noe which stop i m stopping at, n where i will end up at..
becoz life is usali a cycle of processes..
i reali wan to enjoy each process ....

now i reali optimstic
hmm but i lose money today again
sian damn chelsea...
erm..

i saw nth buy darkness..

may darkness glorify ur day!!
god save me!
haha.. weird jincai

lol..

anyway yesterday bk out early.. hah 8pm lol..
took a bus home.. saw a gal n guy.. making out at the behind of the bus..
i was like omg..
they kiss passionately..
hmm
the gal still in sch uni

i was olike.." wtf"//
n then i very sad..
i nv haf this kind of experience before//
lol.. weird ppl dun haf this kind of thing 1. la


then today whole day at home.. wan to make plans.. to go out.. but sumhow plans dun work out.. so i stay hoome.. slp whoole afternn.. sumtime slping is blissful
now i feel like shit when writing this blog.. wan something to blow off my frustration
but cannt find lei
cant find web frens to blow off on..
arghh
real frens oso cannt
wish i can go running
jogging or anything

frustrating day!

300 days to ord

very tired

300 days to ord

yeah!
haha finali can count to 200something

mean very fast la

10 more mths
heee
fast fast
new optimism

new hopes

boring off day- 220206