i love to cry

hahha.. misleading title

havent cry yet la in this wk .. but going to cry soon.. lolz.. i weak kia.. i alway hide frm trouble... anyway i just wan my life to b peaceful but somehow ppl up there keep screwing it up...

i duno wat to tink le.. wat future hold for me.. i noe i can survive through this 2 yr.. but wat is beyond these 2 yrs.. no money to go to uni.. i m scared of the working life.. sign on? that is nt me..hahahaa

i want to b hapi lehz.. i just wan find some1 who can make me hapi.. to tink same as mee.. to haf dreams as me.. n we can strive together but somehow i nt finding.. i going going going going to b alone alone..

hmm but haha wo xi guan to b a loner le la..

eh i want to try myself with something.. i wan a aim.. hmm somehow i alway say the thing again n again.. duno lehz..maybe tat will b my failing.. trying to aim too high.. duno who will understand me..

eh tok at prata shop last sat.. tok n tok n tok.. i haf nthg to contribute.. becoz i duno wat to say.. can i seriously b as successful as them?

hehehe.. guess my view of world is too small le

a side tot: i going crazy n sian in camp le la.. stay in for whole 5 days.. hah long time nv do tat le.. si beh sianz ah.. some1 some1 entertain me lehz

arghh liverpool lose

hmm liverpool lose..

so sianz..

i tot liverpool will win 1..

becoz i feel carling cup is destined for them.. but too bad chelsea too lucky le la.. n tink liverpool tactic too defensive le..lolz.. but overall it is a great game..great attacking football great defensive football.. thrilling exciting.. nt bad.. gd match

chelsea 3-2 liverpool after extra time..
kezman winning goal

hmm why m i here? lolz.. i gotta book in 5 am morning although offcial time is b4 11pm.. but wan to watch soccer mahz.. omg.. pls god treat me beta.. let nthg happen to me

yoyo long time no update..

i oso forget when i last update liao.. sianz..

alway stay in.. looking at 4 walls.. haha getting more worse n worse .. its reali testing my patience..

hmm i feel i i cant sit down in army.. keep working n working.. army reali takes over my life liao army= my life.. haha

sianz la.. i duno wat to tink le..going to march le..

i alreadi feel i going to xi guan being in camp.. mebber i wun even come out during wkdays le..

haiz.. who will understand my pain?

lolz lolz getting more n more distant frm my netfrens le..

eh.. dunnoe wat to say le.. haha becoz my life isnt relai anything to write abt.. it getting to b army army army army...

yesterday nite nv online.. go some prata shop tok n tok tok until 3 plus.. haha dunnoe lehz.. dun reali interest me.. they toking abt their respective relationship problem.. n of coz abt army.. hmm how should i help them? hehehehhe

i want to plan something..

hmm sorry

sorry

i haf to say to those ppl who haf suffered at my hand, at my childish moods..

hmm i guess i have been too nonsense

alway wan to grumble complain, alway say wan to die..-.-

i guess
i too immature
i too selfish

no wonder ppl start to run further away frm me..

hiaz.. i expect too much frm my frens.. i m too full of myself.. i did not respect my frens..

hmm guess this is me.. n i guess i just keep on losing frens ba....

wonder who will see this.. i just haf to say sorry to u all n wish u to continue ur life well in ur own world

some1 tok to me leh

sian

when i online, i feel stressed n sianz n no 1 to tok to

when i offline, i oso feel the same

hmm

why i become so unlikeable?

when can i ever find my old crappy self back?

i wan b back

i wan to b a smart senstive old guy again

i gt nth to say le.. please tok to me lehzzz..