monday blues n MC!

haha decide wan to take a break... so tml will go for a mc..

been wanting to study.. bit by bit.. very tiring..

hmm.. exams faster finish ok..


hmm i still in love with that ger

but it so impossible...


hmm maybe find new target

why ppl always tell me i wrong to feel inferior?

hmm...

no confidence in myself.. always feel inferior.. always feel the world is against me..

jincai is like that 1..

gals dun like.. that why i cant get gf...


i always love to compare.. compare life..

maybe i shd tone down my comparomg..


pls make me feel better abt myself.. pls let me forget that gal.. forget my frenship with her..


pls let me ignore her.. pls let my life to be better

sometime it better to be single n flirting.. n no commitments..

life is better that way..

no commitments...

hmmmmmmm 2 more wks to exam.. stress is coming to find me..

life.. sux

i rather work in other coy than see her cold to me..

i just wan hthe best memories

why life have to deny me that

no much of selfblaming. or blame on life will do good to me...


i can onli go on..

saturday

one day i cannot stop tinking of her..

one day i canot stop tinking of life

why i have so much worries


i wan throw away my worries n live my life..

maybe i too calculating..

maybe i tink too much

i wan change my life

all by myself

do u feel stress in life?

do u feel like u can do nth rite in this life?

i kindly invite u to kill urself

hmm then again, it is onli human nature to tell urself u can do it. u can overcome it. treasure life.

life is short. u shd treasure it..

maybe u tell urself tis is optimistic thinking

but i tell u it is all bullshit..

life is nt a bed of rose.. life can onli get worse..

hmm sometime i wan gif up..

but why cant i?

family? fren? i dunnoe.. maybe is nt my character to gif up..


but sometime it is frustrating to see ppl close to u die 1 by 1.. sumhow tink u can do more for them..

but u cannot..

somehow i wish i can die instead of them.. let other ppl mourn for me. then i mourn for them..


maybe it all part of growing up...

i wish i can die. maybe i can see how mani ppl will go my funeral

if there is a next life, i hope i wun suffer this kind of things again..

why cant i be a smiley face in the world. instead i m besieged by death, sadness, heartbreak,family problems, financial problems, life issues that nv seem to go away...