having a love-hate relationship

lol friday i lost my temper.
very badly. guess very ungentlemanly.

boss ask me n her n 1 of colleague to clear some stuff before going off.. of course if do it together, it will be faster.. i finish my other stuff first .. my other colleague never. den she say she go to toilet. i ask her go help me do the stuff we r assigned to do it together. but in the end she never. she went back help the other colleague. ok.. i tot maybe she is like helping other colleague do her stuff fasterr. den we 3 can do our assigned tasks togetjer.. in the end i wait n wiat n try clear the stuff . but i saw them clear their stuff n pack their staff.. i confront her n say boss ask us to clear the thing together. she say can do it tml .. she wan go home. i tell her help la.. today things must do finish. drag tml den stay back tml oso wad.. wad the difference.. in the end i very rudely move off n say " dun help dun help lo.. i do"


den they go off.. later when i si bei angry. i sms some harsh stuff..

in the end when i cool down, i realise i abit harsh la.. so i sms sorrie n explain my reasons for my ourbust.

firstly, is her wrong mahz.. if she is reponsible, she will stay back to do.

second, 3 people do 1 task is of course faster than 1 person do the task rite..

thridly, i oso need rush hospital. my sis sms me my uncle suddenly move into isolated ward. suspect of tb.. abit worried.. wan go see the doctor ask since my sisters all veri inexperinced.

haiss.. this sat morning we nid to go back to clear some stuff. i saw her.. i dun have any anger le. i just wan tell her it is all over le. dun take it to heart..

but she ignore me.. ignore my sms..

i dunnoe is she xiao qi or wad.. or she cant take criticism.

i wonder wad she thinking

i reali dun understand..

gals r hard to understand

can any1 tell me?

i guess i going to let her cool off during wkend.. monday go talk to her..
hopefully she will listen to me..

haiss.. why it sound like my fault liao huh

i have been helping her all the while.. she sick i help clear her stuff.. task assign to us. i help her clear while she go home..

issit i m taken for granted??

when i ask for help, she dun help.. veri jialat la..

but i dun wan our frenship to sour..

wait office will be unbearable

bday 23

lol.. 23 le.. so old...

how ever dunnoe wad shd i wish for lei this yr?

my bday wish nv come true 1..

but ok anyway it my special day..

so to humour myself , i shall make a bday wish

i wish her to become my gf..


lol... 1 yr later maybe i see this wish come true arnot

so long nv blog

ya i m so boring..

nv come to blog becoz reali nth to blog la

i dun have bf to blog abt

i dun shop


i oso dun like to type 1 2 3 words in blog den end story

oh ya best i dun have digicam
s

so i cannt take pics

i cannt zilian

so ya.. boring blog..

so sad colleague dun like. she make it clear. i respect decision. but i cant stop tinking of her...

well i still treating her as a fren..

have abit quarrel on thurs n fri over a new guy n her. she seem frenly towards him. i guess i too pushy to pry into her affair..

so ya kana scold.. n say clearly liao. she dun like me at all. thks but dun be nice to mee

but i wun forget the times with her

wednesday always so sian

now 1230am le..

so tired

BORING LIFE.

I WAN TAKE a break

soo long nv update

reali nth much to update.

sian my wishes nv come true. i fail 1 exam.. nv go smoothly through. guess life nv smooth.

but 1 thing gd abt me. once i fallen down, i will go for more.

hmm nv give up!!

i going for ChFC qualifications. n exams is like 15 days away for the first modules.

wish me luck

nv gifup!!

life nowadays is work n home.

work is so boring. everyday paper work

home is tv n online.

haa totally no mood to study. must buck up liao.

today hapi. fill timesheet with gusto. becoz pay is coming soon!!

i gg be richer by 1 k again..;o

who wan dinner treat frm me.


but i wish to be richer. so i can do alot of things. like treat family to a holiday trip. gif them things they nv have before. who say my mum n dad r poor. they cant gif us much. so we have to strive for it..

we nv have brand new toys. we nv have brand new sch bags, shoes , shirts.

but is ok. i nv envy. becoz i have a great mum. now we r older. but i cant gif back all the love my mum have given. guess my siblings is the onli one i can gif back my gratitude.

haa.. anyway all my siblings study so good.. onli mi. i still veri lousy..

ahhh i wan be a success in a life. ehh

wad if i live to 100.. it is useless if i nv do anything great with this life!!