wkend sux

wkend sux.. always have time to tink of alot shit

want to b bz bz bz n focus on my goals..

so mani tings to focus on

life still goes on

no matter wad, i will hold on n continue to strive

budget save n success

lol.. wkend is here.. but i feel damn poor

no money lei


lose 4d again


when i can earn euff money to be sufficient?

i need find insipirationnnnnnnnn



:(

random blog

working on a monday.. shd be monday blues?

but nahz.. i m happie.. happie to be bz.. i love to do things although sometimei veri slack..

read a article today

retrenched. n lesson learnt: learn to make everyday count. even if u a employee, u can do things for urself n tink of urself first before the organisation


how true is it

awaiting my bonus .. dunnoe got arnot...



waiting for my pay.. so that i can play cfd.

sunday

tml working.. now 2 am le.. man u have won the league cup

i have tirelessly wanted to forget her.. jiayou bahz..

i hope i can do it

anyway... go to macpherson eat porridge.. nt bad.. want to eat mre but in the end stuffed to death

watch 2 movies in a row

shagged..

GO FOR IT

haha i need to be positive so as to gain wad i want..

now need to chiong le.. i rest euff this yr

hmm i shall slowly build n make the best out of my life.. i will be enthu


goal of the yr : improve myself in character and save 20k!

= = = == = = = = = = =

to be continued

cska vs aston villa

staying up to watch this match since i have bet $100 on it..

i gambling addict:(

can life be simpler?

i today totally avoid her.. if knowing n wanting to be close to her is hurting her, it is better for us to be apart.. although it hurt mre to me than it hurt her.. since she dun like me, it is best to do this.. 1 yr le.. i must be determined to get rid of thinking of her every moment and every sec. i can do it..


lols.. win money le.. wan go slp more.. 1 yr later.. i hope i find gf. haha..

so mani sales. economy damn bad.. feel likebuying.. but nth much to buy

teach me how to earn xtra money

today is a boring day @ work.... still dun like boss to torture me.. sian. work seem so little but the attitude of the new superiors sux.. or maybemy attitude sux. hate ge now.. now looking through jobstreet. i wan find a job that pay as well as my current job. but it seem difficult.

been surfing ard.. life seem mundane. been seeing alot of affilate marketing website. seem interesting. but tink require time n effort. n dun tink it is worth the time. but seem to cannt tink of better way to generate positive cashflow. keep lose in soccer /stock.


die le la.. when can i be financially free.. i hate to tink of money. but it haunt me everyday

hahaa.. i shd prepare to invest mre in relationship n frenship to gain happiness!

but i no fren 1 de la

ok sleep now.. ciao tml will be a better day

resilient jincai

somehow i feel so demoralised.. positive things does not happen to me everyday.

watch benjamin button. quite nice but super long. the message the movie try to send is quite positive.

no matter how much we curse and swear everyday, once it is time to go, u will have to let go.

:( ur life is determined by frens and circumstances n the things in ur life. it all fated. no matter how proactive, a sec later or early u do 1 thing, it will dramatically change ur life.

but then again, we should be always positive in life and move on. u can only look to the future and hope for the best.

i have no idea wad i going to do in the future. once, i have dreams, hopes and aspirations. i try to aspire to reach the sky but i find the going tough. veri tired. sometime hope to give up n just let go

m i too zhi zhou?

work bu ru yi, love bu ru yi, family bu ru yi.

who can i confide in this tough times?

her bday 18th feb

hhaa once i set on a plan, i wan to finish it..


so when i decide to celebrate her bday.. i decide to plan how to celebrate..


hmm in the end i feel it is not as successful as i wanted..

but at least she appreciate wad i do..

sooo how?

dreams?

why i keep dreaming.. dunnoe.. keep tinking of things.. turning mad?


sometime i wonder if i m living in the past.. why life gif me so mani things and rivers to cross over..


i so tired.. i feel like giving up


i losing controll..

how i wish life is like soccer.. i feel like i in control of soccer.. n i keep scoring goals.. successful..


success is so hard to get

FIRST POST IN 2009

finally after so long, i decide to restart my blog..

becoz i feel like i losing abit direction in my life

need a focus n diary to tell me where m i going..

maybe i will use this blog to organise my life abit..

i dun wan live a useless life..

i wan make full use of my life

hehehehee i wan buy digi cammm.. so i can upload more pics.. ok la my target..

hihi

somtime i wonder wad is life abbout?

hais treasure everyday.. time pass so soon

i wan do so mani things.. but i feel so unempowered

feel weak

tuesday @ work.. quarel with her again

haa.. quarrel with her again.. tot we cold war all the way.. but we clash over something small again..

why she always have the wrg idea abt me..


anyway it ok la.. hahhaa study more impt

must keep tink of idea to press myself on


everyday i must improve

restart blog now.. becoz i need a blog to sort out my tots..

omg.. economy is getting bad.. wad to do.. how to do.. must be prepared for recession

best is to be more hardworkin @ work n hope for more pay n bonuese.. n find second jobs....

i slack too long.. this yr i must complete 1 paper of insurance n pass it..


N also i must pass the three paper of my accounting paper..


Cannt slack..

must plan my time welll


chua jincai, u can do it.. no distraction.. totally focused on the goal



6 mre days to payday

blog reopen

finali find time to blog le..

i quite lazy to blog..

becoz nothing much to blog..

i still in love with that ger

somehow willlll i be able to wait for herrr?


too much competitions le

a lost cause

lol

i dun feel like she is interested in me

while i m digging a hole deeper n deeper

stupid me

i dunnoe wad i m doing

i just wish my exams to b over

n my life to be ok again!

i not rich

lol.. happy to sign on perm as at may 2... pay good euff.. wonder hw long i will stay there?

great eastern has been great to me.. colleagues great.. working environment great.. location near..

although sometimes life sux becoz i keep like gers who dun like me.. haha.. i also sian..

quarrel n being sensitive to things that shd nt affect me

well that me. i dunnoe how to manage myself le..

haiss


i reali suxx

when can i really grow up??

alreadi gg 25 soon.. a quarter of century gone.. i reali feel damn old..


haha.. exams is coming................

i everyday feel stress abt it.. my mind is totally divided into 2..

1 is exam.. the other is u know who

haha.. i m crazyyyy.. i must buck up in examss...

sheee abit indifferent to me.. sometimes good sometime bad.. wonder wad she tinking

wonder wad m i tinking of also..

we quarrel like shit.. but we can be tian mi like siao.. huan xi yuan jia?

haha.. we shd leave it to fate but i cant stop tinking of her...

hmm well sandy have her bf.... sometime i oso wish she is mine.. but fate decrees not..
i just wish her the best n hopefully i will see her again somewhere sometime...

life continues.. i wan to have a perfect life.. with a lovely family and a great career..

i wan give the best to my family.. give the best to my wife.. gif the best to my children..

continue to strive hard jincai

i hate working

I HATE WORKING...

YES I HATE WORKING..


LOL

ONCE AGAIN I HATE WORKING


nth to update.. except i going to sign

our life is just that.. pieces of memories

human create memories to remember things that make living a life more bearable

good memories make life memorable

so we shd create mre good memories to make life great

life is great.. it just depend on u to make it great

working life although is boring, but once u get to know more ppl more frens

it certainly brighten ur whole life

so mani things to do.. yet no much time

so u should treasure ur time in life

prepare to reset ur life if u feel gloomy

do new things to brighten ur life

that why we need to know more frens more ppl

i have fun with the current batch of colleaguess

really will miss them when or if they or i leave the company

luke, tiffany,joycie, zunwen, n others...

long time no update le..

poor blog.. have neglect u for veri long le.. becoz i veri veri busy with work.. super bz.. super OT

ok euff of it..

still doing well in life .. in all aspects?


frens..

my colleagues have become good frens... all those temp staff, perm staff have become my close frens..

i know them for 10 mths le..

time seem to go so fast when u so hapi

in my 10 mths with them, alot thing happen

my first time of seriously pursuing a gal.. seriously have feeling for her.. not those play play 1..

is those type of wanting to take care of her 1..

but too bad she no feeling for me.. haiss tink i still veri immature..

but is ok..

they have become my good frens.. share the good times the bad time.. the busy times..

those days at the office have become enjoyable.. i will miss them when one by one they leave the company or i leave the company..

we have went on a few outingss.. enjoy all of them.. see they laugh n joke.. we reali have become closer.. thanks for fate for bring all of us togethr.. thanks god.. at least i not depressed anymre abt life...


it make me look forwards to mondays at least



study

have so far done well.. finish my cat. finsih half of chfc.. now aiming to DO WELL in the 3 acca modules i have enrolled in.. although i tink it will need alot of hard work on my side.. becoz serioulsy veri tired after work to study..
but i can do it..

heelllo.. when can i never do it if i set my mind on it?

success or failure is just a word.. the attitude n learning experience is wad u will gain..

go for it jincai..



financial investing


i wan do well in this aspect. been reading books n forums.. trying to analyse companies.. trying to beat the Market.. but without certainity, i certainly wun venture into risky instruments

for now is invest in unit trust n practise rsp. becoz money for me is actually nt impt..

is thee feeling of being useful.. that the true motivation of being the best in ur life that is ever



My motto is to Live ur best...


relationship

i certainly yearn for a relationship.. a relationship whereby both parties care for each other.. i can unreservedly share my feelings with her.. she will be my support when i can be her support.. this kind of gal so hard to find.. i know i cannot change my weakness but i hope to find a ger who can accept me for who i m...

i not a good person.. a person with super irritating attitude, lame personality.. slow to understand things.. insensitive.. selfcentered...


but wadeva i know i m a kind person.. i will care n cry for u if i knw u care for me in return.....

is a 2 way things...

zzz challenges ahead : whether to sign or no sign? .. where to advance in career? determined euff to pass all the modules. buy a hse.. financial investing.. mAking More frens