i duno wat to do

huh.. i a minor citizen?

wat tat?

i duno wat to do

they say if i nv go take oath of allegiance, i will be stripped of singapore citizenship n deported out of singapore

huh

i nt reali singaporean?

erm must go do it fast..
if nt i a illegal immgrant?

nice food

today is wednesday- nth happne in camp

tuesday

hmm went to old airport road eat fried kway teow
haha.. always wan to try it
it different
it much nicer in taste
n gt a unqiue taste
haha.. thumbs up

then went to katong eat laska
hehe
yummy
unique oso
great food

any food kakis?

any food recommendation
i dun care how far
n how expensive
food food!

its been a mth since we tok

continue to write on abt my life

olevel judgement day

hmm i quite scared tat day.. i walk gingerly to sch.. failing is unforgiveable.. passing is inconsolable

i haf to do well for myself
do well for my mother
hmm
quite scared n see alot of old frens at scha few mth apart frmolevel exams..
every1 is still ok
hmm
ng meiling, my form teacher is there

i received my result
my tears start to drop
i failed my english
gone my hopes
gone my dreams
all As but failed english..lol

u gt see this kind of person.. i cant hold my emotions.. i look at the result while i walked back to home. i cried.. i screamed, " why the world treat me like this"

i duno wat to do.. maybe frm tat time my life changed entirely?


temasek poly

i cant blame any1 for my ineptitudeness..my fialure..
i duno wat to choose in poly
i just ti gum..
i just chose dip in infocomm becoz it contain info..
mean just study information?
lol
n it dun nid pass english
i went into temasek poly
attended orientation
felt weird
but i felt i belong
hmm
mit asten samuel n ppl who will be my polyclassmate for the last 3 yrs..

actuali poly life is nthg much...
everyday slack ard inlecture hall
piak for projects n
exams..
i mit chee chun in yr 1 sem 2.. actuali we classmate since first day..
but hmm
duno la we just clicked in yr 1 sem 2 when we become proj mates.. n we been proj mate for yr2 oso..
haha he introduced me to chenwei , weelung ... nahh duno how n why our frenship developed..
ahah
i m just a guy who played soccer after class..
i just alway will jio them play soccer.
somhow over games n over time our frenshiop developed..
n i become outgoing .. or i alway been outgoing.. i beginning to trust ppl
haha
i alway cant forget how we play soccer matches on astroturf n street soccer court.. usuali played tilll the dead of nite.. at nite we will wander ard tp.. oso. n haha when we finish the soccer games late at nite.. usualli gt a grp o volleyball girls training..
.. maybe since then i become a se gui.. alway looking at gals.. i abit bad hor.. alway bio gals.. yucks.. i duno wh i look at gals.. why cant i treat them as a normal person.. becoz they r nt so special anyway..

alot of things i cannt forget abt poly life..
it simply the greatest time i haf
although nt academically
becoz it reali suffered
i noe alot of special frens..
haha i glad i gone thorugh poly

i just glad although i lost my mum, i gained alot of true frens...

INTERNET


internet haf changed many ppl ife
it certainly haf changed mine
as u noe
although i can sound like a veyr noisy outgoing person
but actuali i veyr quiet person
i a passive person
maybe abit negative?
but definitely not a person who interact well with person

haha duno how ppl see me as
i definitely nt a person who dun say thing well
or do thing well

hmm internet chaned my life
it made me a internet addict rite now
i cant surivive without internet
maybe tat why my social skills haf suffered as well

i noe alot of frens fmr internet
n they haf made my lfie more enjoyable too
maybe in the next post i will try to say more?
becoz i abit tired

lousy life

hmm
no pt on dwelling on things that happen the way u do not intend to happen, but instead watch how fate changes ur life..

i cant forsee wat ppl tink.. i cant force ppl to tink my way..

i have my way..
i have my will

maybe sometime i do seem negative
but i understand things in life happen for a reason
i like to tink negatively
nt becoz i want ppl attention
nt becoz i just feel my life sux
just that i dun expect much abt my life
i dun reali try to expect much frm ppl
expect much frm life
becox they usually disappoint u


i duno wat is expected frm me.
but u cannt expect much frm me
i just a normal person with emotions
a person who tink more than he should

haiya..
jialat la


ben dan hor
but i will try to be as i m
becoz i cant see how bad m i
haha
i just b a cheerful ., lame , unromantic, slow, a person who cant decide how to pursue his life..
who duno how to make decision
haha

in five yrs, i just b me with a grp of fren.. chenwei, chee chhun, weelung, waichuan, tony, alvin. najib, ah kuang..

sharing wat knowledge n happiness with them

i will treat them the greatest as i can gif them.,..

becoz i noe i a gd fren
i treasure ppl
they noe i a gd person ableit lame, careless, sloppy
they dun begrudge ppl on a just a fault, or several faults..
becoz they onli remember how gd i m
nt how bad i m

i just jincai,
who cheer up thier life..
who gif them a spark of life
who support them in time of nid
who lend a ear to them
who alway just being jincai... "slow"

so many yrs le.. but a moment of "bad" cant chnage the many yrs of frenship we haf

frenship is above all.. dun question my commitment towards me

i alway committed to each fren frm the day i noe them

seeing ppl blog so little in a entry yet can express alot, i wonder if i can do that tooo..
haha
it may leave ppl yearn for more.. to noe more abt her life.. somhow i duno how to say short entries
my blog is alway full of rambling entries..

full of rubbish
haha..

i a person who dun get angry easily
i can give n take
hmm n i like o make ppl irritate.. somehow hmm i like to see ppl angry.. haf some reaction
haha.. such a prankster i m
lol.. tat why i gt so few frens ba..
uniquely those frens i haf is who can tolerate my crapness.. my lameness..
haha
they knew how to deal with me..
tat why they r my frens..
tat y i noe i nv be alone..

as i look forward to days of torturous army life..
1 yr of this life
still gt 1 yr to go..


maybe
i should haf to walk it alone..
i should probably just switch off my hp..

n just be there in body but no spirit
dun tink so much la, jincai
nobody care for u le..
u just a person who
can never be recognized

jincai... student of yumin pri sch
jincai.. student of paris ris sec
jincai..student of temasek poly
jincai.. in bedok camp as clerk
jincai.. a singapore citizen
died on oct 31 2005